Weather to Change

She smiled at me this morning

So I think it might be a blue sky day

The stormy clouds of last night have settled

the rain appears to have gone away

Its only a smile but it seems to help

I cant remember too much about last night

I cant recall what I did wrong

Why she wanted to start a fight

The weather changes constantly

I must be careful what I say and how

Because one wrong word, a simple glance

The blue sky could become snow

It doesnt seem that long ago

When the sun shone all the time

Each day she would steal my heart

Her perfect act of crime

Our summer days would last forever

The heat would not dissipate

But the love of sun and blue sky days

Are now hurricane days of hate

So I sit here and hope it continues

Hope my smile stays and it doesn't look strange

For I know if it slips and looks like a frown

How quickly the weather can change

Jason Cotton

25/09/2012

©Sonofdel2012

Update and New Poem

Its been almost another two weeks since my last post and not a lot has changed with my medical condition.  I have been on two lots of antibiotics and various other tablets to stop me being sick but so far nothing seems to work.  This has been going on for over two months now and its getting way beyond a joke.  I was prescribed some more tablets today and have to give them a two week course.  Fingers crossed.

Haven't been doing a lot other than listening to music and being on facebook (way too much).  My energy levels are practically non-existent most day and if it wasn't for my multi vitamin and iron supplement I would probably not have enough energy to write this.

Watched some television but cant seem to get focused on anything for longer than about ten minutes.  Being ill has given me the chance to get through some of the music that is back logged on my pc.  So far this week I have listened to Alyssa Reid, A-ha (3 albums), Prodigy (2 albums), Jarre (Teo and Tea), Euphoric Emotions 6, Driving rock ballads and a good 3 cd set called American Anthems.  A good set of music to suit all tastes there.

Like I said I haven't watched a lot of tv at all and no films.  Did manage to watch a lot of football last week.  Europa League and Champions League matches.  I am trying to get into my writing again and am slowly but surely getting there.

We did have a visit from an old friend of mine on Sunday (Ian and Pauline. known Ian quarter of a century). They stayed a while and we had a good chat and catch up. We had both turned 40 since we last saw each other.   The weather has been lousy for the last 48 hours and its hardly stopped raining.  We usually have a small puddle in the graveyard at the back of us and after looking out ten minutes ago it has turned into a small lake.  I swear I saw a fin sticking up out of it earlier, but that could be my new tablets............lol

Remembered

When 96 voices are heard on the wind

Then shall we remember

When all our tears flow each day

Then shall we remember

For we cannot forget that day

And memories will live forever

When 96 are thought of each day

Forever be remembered

96 candles that will never burn down

Their faces etched forever

Their smiles and tears remembered

In our hearts always

Their voices echo and carry still

Remembered on the wind

96 voices heard forever in countless hearts

Sonofdel 

What is........

What is paradise? What is paradise to you?

Is it standing on a beach, looking at an ocean blue?

Staring at a faint horizon that promises places new

Knowing in your heart that's a dream that will come true

Tell me is that paradise to you?

What is living? What is living to you?

Is it waking each new morning so you can hear the birds sing?

Is it watching the sun rise to see what the day will bring?

Or do you prefer to thank someone for taking the time to ring?

Is that living? Is that living to you?

What is hope? What is hope to you?

Is it wanting an end to the troubles that you see?

Is it wanting to find the perfect love that cannot be?

Or do you want something more, like lots of money maybe?

Is that hope? Is that hope to you?

What is love? What is love to you?

Is it holding hands and feeling part of something new?

Is it crying tears of joy when you hold a person true?

Or is it having someone that can make the grey sky blue?

Is that love? Is that love to you?

To me my paradise is anywhere you are

Its the sky above me and each and every star

Its the earth I walk upon each and every day

My paradise is with you and its where I want to stay

Living to me happens each time we speak

A feeling inside so strong, that makes my body weak

Its knowing when the darkness comes you are by my side

Laughing with your smiles and drying tears you've cried

Hope is something I keep close to my heart

Hoping you will never leave me and that we will never part

Looking at you and hoping these days will never go

Hoping that the love for me you will always show

love to me is everything about you that makes me smile

Its the journey that we walk together, every single mile

Its in the kisses that you give me and the feelings deep within

Its knowing that my life will end with you from where it did begin

Jason Cotton

11/09/2012

©Sonofdel 2012

Still waiting

Well another different few days.  more being ill.  I have an appointment for Thursday morning yeyyyyyy.  Well if its that long then i surmise that what is wrong with me cant be that serious.......can it?

Anyway on a lighter note.  Watched a few good films recently with Deb.  A couple of classic supernatural/horror films.  The first two were the very cool White Noise and White Noise:The Light.  I kind of like these sort of films because they are not your hollywood 'we had better please the audience' type of films.  They are grittier and tackle some of our own fears and beliefs.  The other one we have watched is the timeless Stephen King film The Tommyknockers.  It has taken us years to finally get this on dvd (thank you thats entertainment....lol).  On that note a miracle happened yesterday.  I managed to persuade my body that it was upto a trip into town and we went in Thats Entertainment and bought..................................NOTHING......!!!!!!!!!

Ok so i did pick up a couple of dvd's from B and M but that's beside the point.  I got From Paris with Love (good action film and clever story) and Copout (not seen it yet but looks cool).  Deb also managed to pick up a movie from the Poundland store called The Deal (William H Macy and Meg Ryan comedy so should be good).

Got the new Pet Shop Boys double cd through the post on Monday (Elysium).  Going to listen to it this afternoon and will let you know what its like.  Also wrote another new poem on Monday and have posted it too.  Feel free to leave comments or constructive criticism on any of my work.  I can take it...................lol

Aliens

I will not listen to the lies

The political insight and the false promises

No point in believing all their propaganda

Forgotten once you believe

I wont be swayed one way or the other

Because I know they all lie

But I will put my faith in the aliens

I will listen when they invade

I will stand and not judge them

For they must be more human than us

We look in each others eyes and lie

We turn our backs on those that need us

They teach us what we know is right to be wrong

Judge us for our colour

Disown us for the choices we make

Give us freedom of speech

As long we say what they want to hear

Tell us who we can love and why

Who are they to judge?

A day without war is like a miracle

And tears are more shed in pain than in laughter

But when the aliens invade us

They wont lie just to please us

They might take over us

But we will know what they want

So forget the politicians that lie

And the media that make us scared

Forget the religions that speak peace only to declare war

Don't let them educate you with false lies

Be deaf to their words, they will hurt you

Be like me

I have faith in the aliens

Jason Cotton

08/09/2012

At last

Well its been almost a month since my last post and it appears my health doesn't want to improve.  I went for my Gastroscopy (see previous post) and they didn't find anything on the day but they did send of a sample for analysis (biopsy).  I got a letter today telling me that the results are back and on Monday I will hopefully learn what is wrong with me.  Its been a very hard few weeks and feeling weak all the time is not a good thing.  Simple tasks are now wearing me out very quickly and with not being able to keep much food down for almost a month, feeling weak is a common thing.  I have done hardly anything in the last few weeks (other than be sick).  Deb has tried me on various diets and I have had my medication changed again but so far nothing is working.

I have become a facebook game addict once again as this is the only thing i have the attention span for.  I just sit at my pc and listen to music.  I must have listened to at least two dozen cd's in the last three weeks (thats entertainment's fault.............LOL).

I still spend a lot of time on the phone, with people calling up to find out how i am and if there is any change.

I decided today to write a new poem.  I have been writing it in my head for the last few days and finally committed it to paper.  Enjoy please.