Poem of the Day (vlog)

I have never tried this before but this is my poem of the day.  I decided to read it out as a VLOG.  There are a couple of stumbles but i prefer it like this because it looks more real and not edited to make it look perfect.  Hope you enjoy it.

Cant believe it has been fifteen months since the happiest day of my life !

Into Eternity

In the blink of an eye and with one touch of your hand

Time passes so quickly that I can hardly breathe

Your love carries me onward when my own fails

Together our hearts will life's tapestry weave

Each day, each minute, each hour that I live

Its with you in my eyes and my heart I go on

For this game is once played and not always do we win

But winning isn't important unless you find the one

That person to cry with, to live with, to love with

One more second and that is all that you would need

For a second in love is a lifetime together

A path forged for eternity wherever it may lead

If that is love then I am glad I found it

With you in my life I could want no more

Always my love is yours and yours alone

On the wings of my happiness, my true love will soar

©Sonofdel2015

For my beautiful wife Deb.  Without her my life would mean nothing.

I Wasn't There

I wasn't there to feel your pain

To watch you lie in mud and rain

I cant imagine what you saw

How you wished for home I am sure

There is no way I can ever know

How often you let your tears flow

To think of what you gave inside

I wear my poppy, wear it with pride

I wasn't there as you crawled

When you hoped the war had finally stalled

I can never know what you felt each day

The pain that never went away

Crawling from trench to trench

In slides of mud and nauseous stench

I was not there to see the tears you cried

So I wear my poppy, wear it with pride

The smile on your face as a letter arrived

And a reply that told your loved ones you had survived

After all these years you are still here to tell

But your lips are sealed about the war, the hell

I cant believe that one day people might forget

The heroes, the brave, the ones we never met

I will tell my children about the people who died

And will tell them to wear their poppies with pride

Because I was not there I can never understand

What it must have been like to hold a dying mans hand

To watch their life just fade away

Knowing it could be you today

So each year I think of the life I live

Remember those that their life did give

Just to give me the chance to breathe and survive

I will always wear my poppy with pride

©Sonofdel2014

Is

It's in everything she does

The slightest thing

It's in every words she says

The way she sings

All in the way she is

I could want no more

She is, and that's all that matters

In every single touch

She thrills me

Her love in my heart

It fills me

And when all is said and done

She loves me

If I want heaven

I need look no more

Is it right for her to be mine?

To be by my side

Is my world complete

Because of this feeling inside

I can look to the future

No more need to hide

She is what my life is for

She is everything

©Sonofdel2014

How I Became

I was born to a life that left a lot to be desired
Taunted and teased by bullies and liars
My school life was hell and how I survived I just don't know
Many times I sat confused and let the tears flow
But I cant hold a grudge for the pain that I suffered
Or the taunts I absorbed and the insults that were muttered
For to me they are my past and I have to say
That is how I became the man I am today

Well my life continued and work life was bad
A sense of not belonging that was driving me mad
I wanted to scream at them all and just run
But I realized the rest of my life had begun
The people I worked with laughed behind my back
They opened a fissure that once was a crack
Well I would like to shake their hand and see what they say
Because that is how I became the man I am today

Well life got so cruel and much did I lose
Life played me an ace that turned out a ruse
For health was the next downhill slope for me
I asked myself then how much worse could it be
The answer came over time and the pain inside grew
I couldn't see the sun or the sky that was blue
Though sometimes I don't understand what I did to be this way
That's how I became the man I am today

Now life is much better and my future so bright
For out of the darkness came my shining light
She taught me about love and what it can do
The pain inside faded and the gray sky turned blue
So forget my childhood, my teens and my life
For my light next year will become my wife
I will look into her eyes and softly say
You are why I am the man I am today

Jason Cotton
08/11/2013

©Sonofdel2013

Published Poem

Here is the poem that I recently had published.

Bee Peril

Sitting in my garden

Slowly drinking tea

A faint buzzing sound

In front of me a bee

It seemed to hover there

Just looking me in the eye

It had me hypnotized

As the time passed slowly by

I watched it fly from flower to flower

Then it settled on a rose

It flew towards my face

Stung me on the nose !!!

Once more it flew towards me

I panicked and tried to run

It seemed to follow me everywhere

I think it was having fun

I was just like a madman

Hands whirling like a windmill

I fell over a rake, a hose like a snake

And yet it followed me still

I ran into the house, all shaking

In blind panic and despair

Saw my reflection and started to smile

For there was a flower in my hair

It must have stuck there when I was gardening

So that was the end of that

But from that day to this, no more amiss

When gardening I wear a hat.

Jason Cotton

25/09/2013

©Sonodfel2013

Hell-O-Ween

As the vampires coffin releases him

The lights in the houses all flicker and dim

Expression on faces all appear grim

Be afraid for its Halloween

As witches fly in darkest night

Faces glowing in awesome fright

Candles glow with hellish white

Beware, its Halloween

Graves disturbed as hands emerge

Zombies from their crypts do surge

A terror night is on the verge

Hide its Halloween

So run and hide while you still can

Every woman and every man

For evil has a nasty plan

Its name is Halloween

Jason Cotton

31/10/2013

©Sonofdel2013

Memories of You

I sit and think of all my days

Forgotten now in many ways

My childhood dreams, my hopes and fears

The laughs we shared, and cried the tears

The times I spent with you and your family

Now come back in the form of memory

To me I have lost more than an aunt

Never forget you, in my heart I cant

The images I keep in my heart and head

Replace the things I cant see instead

I want to reach out and call you and talk

Visit you again and to the shops walk

I want to see you smile when you see me

Cringe when I joke and know you can hear me

The days they have flown and the seasons have passed

But the memories I have for eternity will last

So goodbye to my aunt and also my friend

Take with you my love and all the memories I send

Jason Cotton

24/06/2013

Remembered

When 96 voices are heard on the wind

Then shall we remember

When all our tears flow each day

Then shall we remember

For we cannot forget that day

And memories will live forever

When 96 are thought of each day

Forever be remembered

96 candles that will never burn down

Their faces etched forever

Their smiles and tears remembered

In our hearts always

Their voices echo and carry still

Remembered on the wind

96 voices heard forever in countless hearts

Sonofdel 

What is........

What is paradise? What is paradise to you?

Is it standing on a beach, looking at an ocean blue?

Staring at a faint horizon that promises places new

Knowing in your heart that's a dream that will come true

Tell me is that paradise to you?

What is living? What is living to you?

Is it waking each new morning so you can hear the birds sing?

Is it watching the sun rise to see what the day will bring?

Or do you prefer to thank someone for taking the time to ring?

Is that living? Is that living to you?

What is hope? What is hope to you?

Is it wanting an end to the troubles that you see?

Is it wanting to find the perfect love that cannot be?

Or do you want something more, like lots of money maybe?

Is that hope? Is that hope to you?

What is love? What is love to you?

Is it holding hands and feeling part of something new?

Is it crying tears of joy when you hold a person true?

Or is it having someone that can make the grey sky blue?

Is that love? Is that love to you?

To me my paradise is anywhere you are

Its the sky above me and each and every star

Its the earth I walk upon each and every day

My paradise is with you and its where I want to stay

Living to me happens each time we speak

A feeling inside so strong, that makes my body weak

Its knowing when the darkness comes you are by my side

Laughing with your smiles and drying tears you've cried

Hope is something I keep close to my heart

Hoping you will never leave me and that we will never part

Looking at you and hoping these days will never go

Hoping that the love for me you will always show

love to me is everything about you that makes me smile

Its the journey that we walk together, every single mile

Its in the kisses that you give me and the feelings deep within

Its knowing that my life will end with you from where it did begin

Jason Cotton

11/09/2012

©Sonofdel 2012

Aliens

I will not listen to the lies

The political insight and the false promises

No point in believing all their propaganda

Forgotten once you believe

I wont be swayed one way or the other

Because I know they all lie

But I will put my faith in the aliens

I will listen when they invade

I will stand and not judge them

For they must be more human than us

We look in each others eyes and lie

We turn our backs on those that need us

They teach us what we know is right to be wrong

Judge us for our colour

Disown us for the choices we make

Give us freedom of speech

As long we say what they want to hear

Tell us who we can love and why

Who are they to judge?

A day without war is like a miracle

And tears are more shed in pain than in laughter

But when the aliens invade us

They wont lie just to please us

They might take over us

But we will know what they want

So forget the politicians that lie

And the media that make us scared

Forget the religions that speak peace only to declare war

Don't let them educate you with false lies

Be deaf to their words, they will hurt you

Be like me

I have faith in the aliens

Jason Cotton

08/09/2012

Oh The Memories

Well when I was a kid
Remember the times I hid
And didn't do as I was bid
Oh the memories

And when I was a teen
And life wasn't so supreme
But I lived as if in a dream
Oh the memories

My twenties came at me too fast
And I thought that they would always last
But I blinked and they had passed
Oh the memories

Now my thirties what a decade
All the choices that I made
My life no longer afraid
Oh the memories

Now into my forties I stare
And I see my future there
And they will take me, I know not where
I wonder what memories

Jason Cotton
17/07/2012
©Sonofdel 2012

My Friend

Such a good friend, always there for me

A person who I can trust with my life

Remembering that we have known each other years

And I know that we always will be friends

How lucky I am to have someone who understands me

Heart like a diamond, she is so full of loving

One in a million a ray of sunshine in the rain

Voice that talks to me, treats me like a brother

Each day we speak and never run out of things to say

Life would be boring if she was not a part of mine

Let everyone be lucky enough to have a friend like you

Jason Cotton

13^th July 2012

©Sonofdel 2012

What Might Have Been

They meet every month for a drink in the town

always have a smile though their lives are lived behind a frown

and they always manage to smile at each other no matter when the day

for they are friends to each other and that's how it must stay

they have known each other for over twenty years

and they still remember school day laughs and sometimes even tears

and they married both a while ago and families they have got

but that first childhood kiss will never be forgot

so they sit and they talk though each burns deep within

for their real chance at love, a game they know they will never win

and they always tell each other about how good their lives now are

but for the want of a special love each will bear the scar

when they are done they say their goodbyes with a soft kiss on the cheek

and each one will count down the minutes, the hours and the weeks

they will look into their children's eyes and and see a past that slipped away

and lying in bed they will always see the love they shared that day

and its funny how life's journey sometimes takes us of our course

and we never get the chance to rewind or even pause

for this life is just a click of the fingers and its soon done and gone

so don't stare into the darkness when in front of you is the sun

take a chance when it appears it could just be your last

for there is no point living the future but regretting the past

Jason Cotton

08/07/2012

©Sonofdel 2012

Tears

They appear for countless reasons

Sometimes we want them and sometimes they just appear

There are times when we can stop them, but dont

There are times when we should show them, but dont

They are a sign of emotion, some say weakness

They can be joy, they can be pain

They can bring a smile or a frown

They can mean the happiest day of your life

Or the worst thing that has ever happened to you

We sometimes hide from them, smile behind them

Strong if we dont show them, wrong if we dont show them

And no matter how many go, there are countless left

Tears.

Jason Cotton

04/07/2012

©Sonofdel 2012

Decades

I remember the 70's but only a little

for I was born in 72

and I remember the queens jubilee in 77

waving my flag, red white and blue

The red hot summer of 76

with temperatures of 30 every day

and I remember the infant school where I was educated

funny how the years slip away

now into the eighties and this was my time

the decade where I spent most of my teens

from the early computers, the spectrums, the commodores

and having fun in the years inbetween

the music I listened to, erasure, depeche mode

pet shop boys, duran duran and much more

buying vinyl that I just had to own

playing loud until a knock on my door

well the nineties they came and my real life started

here was the chance to build a career

learning computers and office work, writing games and software

and finally old enough to drink beer

having my first proper relationship

and learning the hardships of life

believing that my life would just go on and on

while dealing with anguish and strife

well the millenium reared its head and a new century began

and for me it was to be a wonderful year

for this was when I met my fiancee Deb

and my future became crystal clear

well its 2012 now and as I approach 40

I look back at my life and its journey to date

but I see a future with smiles and tears yet to fall

and the paths that it will create

Jason Cotton

01/07/2012

©Sonofdel 2012

The Tree

The tree sits silent in the ground where it was planted
And the branches bowed with time, are uneven and slanted
And I look upon it now in the shimmering Autumn haze
And its seems only a moment since my foolish childhood days

I remember the first time I climbed up in the tree
Its was a hundred foot tall, well it looked that way to me
And it seemed like it was living, it was like a friend
And in its branches and foliage my childhood I would spend

In the spring it would be happy as it was clothed anew
And it appeared to cry tears, from the early morning dew
All the branches lifted, like arms thanking the sky
And the spring breezes blew the leaves and taught them how to fly

I would sit in the summer watching sunsets from afar
I would sit there at night just looking at the stars
I would climb the highest branches, then try to touch the clouds
And sometimes sit and watch all the birds that flew around

In the autumn I would watch as the leaves turned brown and dropped
And the naked branches beckoned me to climb right to the top
And with the skeletal branches as cover from the day
I would find my peace and quiet, and wish that I could stay

In the winter I would marvel at branches bowed with snow
And listen as the robins high above flew to and fro
And build a snowman guard to watch over the tree
And brush the powdery snow, from what was a friend to me

Well the tree has changed a lot now and the branches gnarled and worn
And graffiti and slogans on its burnt black trunk adorn
For like me, time has taken its toll on my tree
Though it will always be, my childhood home to me

Jason Cotton
08/01/2002
©Sonofdel 2012

Does it hurt?

You look at me through eyes of red, jealousy?

I got away from you and now you want me back

You should have worked harder when you had the chance

Put more into the relationship, much more

Treated me better, showed you loved me more

Does it hurt?

To know I have another, someone new

Someone who loves me for who I am

Happy with me, happy for me

A smile even when there is nothing to smile for

Easy for her to say ' I love you'

You struggled, always

Does it hurt?

When you look at me and I am happy

Does it make you angry, sad, resentful?

You had your chances, and there were lots

I tried to make it work, believe me

But there is only so much pain a person can take

And I took more than my share

You hurt me, you destroyed me, you belittled me

So I ask again, does it hurt?

Jason Cotton

27/06/2012

©Sonofdel 2012

Did I Tell You

Did I tell you that I love you
Did you hear the words I said
Though no voice assailed your ears
You must have seen it in my eyes
Or was it in my smile
The smile that I save just for you
Was it my smile or my eyes
That told you that I love you

Did I tell you that I love you
Without a single word spoke
Was it the way I held your hand
As we walked down the beach to the sea
Was it the way I held you close
As we stood to watch the sun set
Was it my holding you close
That told you that I love you

Did I tell you that I love you
When you opened your eyes
When you welcomed in the daylight
As we sat on the beach hand in hand
Knowing our future was together
As I reached out and touched you
I saw you smile and I realised
You were telling me you loved me

Jason Cotton
25/06/2012

©Sonofdel 2012

New Love

New love

I have found new love

I have found new hopes

I have found new dreams

with my new love

she is my world

my everything

without her I am nothing

the moon without stars

a Sun without heat

a planet without life

her heart

her voice

her smile

it's my new love

a different love

the same person

but new feelings

just for her

my new love

always a new day

Jason Cotton 

24/06/2012

©Sonofdel 2012